Without directions.......

Once a while everybody will feel loss....or perhaps being undetermined and uncertain. In these pass few days, i felt completely loss. Eventhough i had a timetable to follow but something just isn't rite....something was missing, some spaces were empty. I said to myself that i would just have to follow the timetable, do what is plan or what was...Still an uncertain instinct has led me to blogging.....maybe to relieve my unoccupied space....lol.....Well, i felt slightly better after indulging myself in a new game my younger brother brought from school, 'Sudden Attack'. It was total fun. The excitement, feeling to take revenge, being shot at the head and to destroy enemy bases were trilling. Yet, this undetermined me still being undetermined after all that excitement.

Directions are essential in life and I strongly needs it. This is not things people can give me. I have to find it myself...i have to......what's loss must be reclaimed.

Optimistic

We all know that being optimistic is good, but have you ever thought that it is hard to be optimistic which is to be not easily hurt by people's word or for the simplest take things as they are and not have to be angry and frustrated at it?

I have always tell myself to be optimistic but as the world keeps spinning my reminder starts to turn off. Pessimistic thinking will flow into me clouding all my judgement, making me hard and scare to make desicion (so that i can avoid failure). I had been let down many times by friends(mostly), family(sometimes) and people i don't know but didn't mention it out and like to keep it that way. My greatest weakness is my temper which lead to my optimism failure and lead to pessimistic thinking. Nevertheless, I know i had to change.....but these things don't just change as we like. Looks like i have to work hard on it.